Coming Home

Having returned home from 6 weeks of practice and retreat with the Awakening Women yoginis, I find myself home, wanting to let words touch my untouchable experience, wanting to share every moment of opening and closing, growing and composting.? And so I share with you these words from my journal, written in Corfu, Greece in the middle of my journey, that seem to capture a spark of what lives inside me now:

My chest sinks as I sit upon morning dew grass fresh between my toes, expressing my longing through the written word, translating mysteries into alphabets.? Quietly, I contemplate nothing as the wind kisses my cheek.? This is peace.

A lot is happening beneath the surface, beyond my intellectual understanding, as I bathe in this silence.? I can sense it.? I can trust it.? And though the doubt of whether ?beneath the surface? is some excuse for nothing actually happening, this nothingness being useless, pointless, and a waste of time, in my bones, I know the truth.

My inner voice dictates, and I transcribe.? My art is to transcribe the silence, the pregnant pauses, the space between.? To allow the rhythms, silhouettes and curves of letters match the shape of this inner voice, cascading sunlight across my heart at dawn.

I wait an open, wait and open, while scriptures are whispered into my ear by crickets and june bugs, by ocean breezes and smiles from my sisters.? Sitting in the lap of patience, I feel safe and warm, trusting this swirling majesty of chaos called Life.

She tells me:

If I were not afraid, I would be a spoken word artist.

I would start revolutions with my pen,

cause guns to drop with my silence.

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I would let my voice ring loudly with the volume of love.

I would stop trying to be or do anything and just be it; just do it.

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I would let the magnificence of mountains move through me.

I would stop looking to my right or left to see what everyone else is doing before taking my step,

And I would leap unapologetically off the cliff of all I know and all I have taken myself to be?all the should?s and shouldn?ts?into the dark abyss of the unknown, trusting this:

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The difference between falling and flying

is surrender.

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~Dominique Youkhehpaz

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P.S. Self-Marriage Unveiled: A 10-Week Program for Women to marry themselves and open their voice to the truth of what matters most, begins this Sunday, August 3!? I am so excited to have the space to share more deeply the insights, openings, and challenges of my practice over these months during the program, to support you in diving deep within, and to hear your own wisdom and truth in this circle of women.? Details are here: www.selfmarriageceremonies.com/unveiled